2018 is *probably* an accumulation of the bravest and most crucial decisions I had to make all for mental and spiritual growth and discipline. I couldn’t say it was a success, but also, couldn’t say it was a failure. It was more of a hard, long training that I had (and still going) to endure.
The last quarter was so excruciatingly painful that even a slightest consolation from it was not visible. But despite all of this, this is the very place where I wanted to be. It is that humbling place I needed all along. My equilibrium. The grit, perseverance and determination to keep going even when you don’t see anything *yet*. When you’ve almost used up all your resources to make it work and people fail to notice. Right there and then, I would look for a brighter side in all of these but I realised, the Lord is the Greatest Consolation I have in my life. He reaffirms me with John 13:7 — “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
As I am writing this and as this year slowly closes, I would blatantly be honest that I am not sure anymore where God wants me to be. But that’s not my problem anymore. I heard someone say before, “your job is not to perform, your job is to obey” but how tempting it is for us saved by Christ to perform for His glory? As this year is ending, so much Biblical contrasts fill my mind but at the end of the day, I cling to that one Egypt where God took me out of. It is my lingering hope that in all of that I earned, currently doing and will be pursuing — God will be glorified and my prayer is that my knee-jerk reaction in everything that I do will be to commit everything to Him before I even work the slightest action item needed.
I believe that this coming #2019, THE BEST IS YET TO COME! The favor of our Lord is coming and being unprepared is not an option.
Cheers to everyone and God keep you always under His mighty protection! 💖✨😘🎉
Kissed by Fire 